Don’t put it off

Fall 2020

That was the last time we had professional photos done. Because we got busy in the fall of 2021 and time just got lost. Then we got busy as fall 2022 approached too.

And then we literally lost our time.

Now we have no time. There is none left. Because Bryce is gone. He was taken from us. So now I am dealing with the grief of losing my firstborn son and also the guilt of not getting any more family photos. I have selfies with Bryce. I have photos of him alone. I have a photo of him and Carter from Christmas 2021. I have a photo of me and Bryce from that same Christmas. I have one of all 3 of us that Christmas. I have one of the two boys with my dad from the summer of 2022.

But I do not have an actual recent family photo. I do not have a photo of Carter and his big brother any more recent than 2 years before he was taken.

I feel like a failure. I feel like I have failed us because of memories I didn’t make for us because we were so “busy” with 2 working adults, my school schedule, Bryce’s social schedule, and Carter’s school schedule.

I feel like I have failed Carter. He already has to go the rest of his life without his big brother and because of me, he also has fewer photos of the two of them.

Don’t put things off because you think you’ll always have more time. I thought I had more time with my son. I thought he had decades. I thought I had so many more years left with him. Because that’s how it should be…parents shouldn’t outlive their children.

Tell them you love them often. Give them more hugs. Take more pictures. Because you never know what time is the last.